She sighs and stops walking, pulling him into a proper hug. "I'm sorry. I know I'm being difficult. I don't mean to be." It may be difficult to make that part out because she's got her face half buried in his shirt.
There will be more hugging while she tries to sort herself out. Feelings are hard and neither of them is very good at this so she wants to make sure she's doing it right. "You may be right that right now I'm trying to pretend everything's okay. I want to enjoy the first birthday I get to spend with real friends and the last one I'm ever likely to want to celebrate. I think it's like... when someone's told they've got a month to live and they go out and do all that crazy stuff they've always wanted to do. You do it because you know it's not going to last. I just. Right now I'm just trying to get through today, okay?"
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Date: 2015-10-10 01:15 am (UTC)There will be more hugging while she tries to sort herself out. Feelings are hard and neither of them is very good at this so she wants to make sure she's doing it right. "You may be right that right now I'm trying to pretend everything's okay. I want to enjoy the first birthday I get to spend with real friends and the last one I'm ever likely to want to celebrate. I think it's like... when someone's told they've got a month to live and they go out and do all that crazy stuff they've always wanted to do. You do it because you know it's not going to last. I just. Right now I'm just trying to get through today, okay?"